argh

my whole LETS BE HONEST AND STRAIGHT WITH EVERYONE thing is more trouble than its worth. Well i'm planning to beg for Sams forgiveness because my phone sucks and decided to freeze forever when i was meant to be meeting him so i sat in town and flicked through french vogue with a sausage roll and a packet of peanut m&m's it was bliss. :) Then i went home and listened to Patrick Wolf and looked through all of my dairies from primary school that are like LILY <3>

BUT tonight i'm going to see Laura to chat about how rubbish things are and watch Bratz movie and today i'm going to see jake and jakob and buy some more m&m's and props for upcoming photography things with my parents money!

Summer?

I thought soon as we we're released from school everything would suddenly start to be amazing but the sun is hiding and i have so little energy and nothing to do. Same people, same places and no money to even try and go somewhere fun or go to toys 'r' us.

I've made myself promise to go to the beach though, even if its raining i'm convinced i'll take a train down to filey and make some sandcastles with Aidan.

The current highlight of my holiday was my birthday where i forced my friends to dress up and my favourite 70's idols (above : Elvis Costello and David Bowie) and danced and played childrens party games. I loved it and even made my own birthday cake from square bars. Hopefully i can afford to get some of my film cameras developed soon because i took some good ones on that. Birthdays still haven't lost their magic for me, i still woke up at 7AM demanding presents and cards and waiting impatiently for Aidan to arrive for sunday roast and a lovely big catch up.

Today i will probably watch 98476873 episodes of scrubs and make several slices of greasy cheese on toast, great way to spend summer right? need to make some new friends who have lots of money or a trampoline.